Smile

As I walked down the lane of life,
I realized all this is a lie.
I picked up the knife,
I can't wait to die, no longer.
I just realized this,
how horrible it seems.
I tumbled down the abyss,
and silently slipped into the darkness unseen.
Smile, friend, smile,
I'd be gone in a while.
You can rejoice meanwhile,
for all this while,
this was what I yearned.
Is this worthwhile,
you ask.
Of course it is.
Don't be sad,
It's not meant to be like that.
So,
smile, friend, smile.

From the Razor to the Rosary - 2 < secret_society123 and Our Battles >

From   the Razor to the Rosary

We sat in my room, looking at each other.

“How about an introduction from each one of us?” I suggested, eager to break the silence. The atmosphere was giving me the chills.

“We can introduce ourselves, if you like, but I don’t think we would need one from you. Maybe Ash and Izzy needs it. Cat, Sue and I have been living in you long enough to know every little bit about you.” Said Deb serenely, perched on my study table.

“You guys have been living inside me?” Flabbergasted, I exclaimed, my mouth wide agape and my hand flew to cover it.

“I’m afraid so, my dear.”

“Why didn’t I know about it?”

“The time wasn’t right yet. Now it is.”

“O…Ok…” I struggled to make sense of what Deb just said. So they had been living inside me all along, but I just met them? It all sounds too inconceivable.

“Right, the introduction,” chimed Sue, reminding us, “ So um, hi Eileen! I am Sue and yeah that’s about it. Deb, Cat, Izzy and I are about the same age.”

“I’m Cat. I’m here to help you cope. Nothing else,” mumbled Cat.

“She’s got really long fingernails to cut you,” said Deb, running her fingers down Cat’s nails which were at least 3 inches long, “I’m Deb. I’m here to help too. To protect you from whoever has the potential to hurt you.”

She gave a sweet, angelic smile.

“I’m Ash. Look for me if yer should need any information regarding what Sue’s trying to get yer to do if yer can’t get it from Google. He hides a hell lot of things, yer know that. By the way I’m older than all of yer here,” said Ash, giving his spectacles a prod.

“My name’s Izzy. I’ll come to keep you company at night,” Izzy gave me a pat on the back, “Ok we’re all done! How about you?”

“Er… well… Uhm… My name is Eileen, as you probably know. I’m 11 now. My birthday is on 30^th December,” I stuttered, not knowing what to say exactly. There doesn’t seem to be much to say anyways.

“Alright, we’re settled!” Sue rose to her feet and turned to look in my direction.

“From now on, we will be your shadows.”