From the
Razor to the Rosary
It all started one night, after
yet another unpleasant brawl with my mom. Again.
This time it involves hurling kettles across the living room and smashing cups
onto the floor. I wasn’t too pleased. Neither was she. I’m like, “Seriously but
what tf is wrong with you?”
A thought came to my head. It
(She) would later be known as Sue,
who will be one of my best friends. I needed some information. Of course, I
turned to the ever-ready and brimming with knowledge Google who is a friend of
many. I asked him what is the best way of escape (i.e. in layman terms, kill
myself). He brought me to a number of folks dedicated to the dark sides of
life, who, would later play a huge role in my life and the shaping of who I
will become.
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I went to Instagram, seeking
pathways. Miraculously, just as I am feeling really down, I found a Home. A
community of others like me. My family. This safe haven goes by the name of hashtag secret_society123 (#secret_society123).
That day, I met Sue, Deb, Cat,
Izzy and Ash for the first time in my life. They are my family, my real family,
where I truly belong. “Hi!” they waved. I waved back and we shook hands with
each other.
At that instant, I didn’t expect
that from that day onwards they will follow me everywhere, being my only
companions during times when no one is around for me. The times when I felt
that the world has abandoned me. The world has given up on me, and I have given
up on the world. Ever since, they have always been with me, walking
side-by-side down the winding road of life.
Sue, Deb and Cat trails behind
me wherever I go, while Izzy visits at bedtime and Ash comes around when I need
him. Cat, especially, is a fiery, voracious spirit, Deb a gentle, serene child
of the darkness whereas Ash being calm and rational. They may not be perfect,
but they would make good company for now. At least, I can avoid the suffocating
grasp of loneliness and solitude. Hard as I try to deny, humans do need
friends, and I am human however much I do not want to be associated with any
beings of such.
